They say time heals, but grief doesn’t care about calendars. Thirteen years after my dad died, I still felt him everywhere—in the kettle’s hiss, in late-afternoon light, in the instinct to call someone who would never answer. He raised me alone after my mom left. He was my entire world. I hadn’t been back to his house since the funeral. I told myself I stayed away because I didn’t need anything from it. Truth was, I wasn’t ready. But eventually, I stood at the door with the old copper key and whispered, “You can do this.” The house felt like a lung trying to breathe without its heart.
I meant only to grab some documents. No wandering. No memories. But habit pulled me to the attic. Dust lifted as I pushed the hatch. Boxes, sweaters, his flannel still faintly scented like him. Then I found a scuffed leather bag I knew instantly: our weekend gaming bag.
Inside was a note in his handwriting:
“We will play after you pass the entrance exams, pumpkin! I’m proud of you!”
I sank to the floor. He never got to see me graduate. The bag held our old console—our tradition was racing games. He always beat me, laughing, telling me one day I’d catch him. The game saved his fastest run as a “ghost car,” forever replaying his best lap.I brought the console downstairs, turned it on, and there he was—his ghost car waiting at the starting line. “Alright, Dad,” I whispered. “Let’s play.”
We raced for hours. I got close to passing him, but when the finish came, I let him win. It hurt and healed at the same time. Now, on heavy days, I play again. I talk to him. I follow his lines. I don’t need to beat him. I just need to keep racing. Love doesn’t leave—it changes shape. Sometimes it looks like a ghost car on an old track, leading you forward one lap at a time.